School is around the corner!!! I should be soo excited right? Well, I am not! I am not looking forward to this upcoming school year at all! The kids schedules last year were not the best but way better than this year. J & B got up early and then I had about an hour before I had to get the other two up. It was nice to have a little time to close my eyes for a minute, or get dressed, or finish the dishes etc.. This year it is all wacky. J has to be on the bus before 7 am. Then AJ gets on just before 8, then B & K get on around 8:30 and then 3 days a week I have to have JC to preschool by 9 am. I then pick up JC at 11:30 get her and E lunch, put E down for a nap, J will then get home at 2 and then they all trickle in... Then it will be homework time, squeezed in with the never ending "Can I play?" question, dinner, and bed. Doesn't sound like it will be crazy but trust me it will. As it is B is already flipping out that her bus is so late coming home and that she won't have any time to play. (at least the girl has priorities LOL)
Okay I know I sound pessimistic, but I am so overwhelmed. What was I thinking having more kids than I have hands? How am I going to keep everything straight? I will probably send the wrong kid on the wrong bus or something. And I know I gave up "me" when I decided to have a family, but I have already let "me" go so much and I was really looking forward to this year and working on making "me" better, healthier in all the ways spiritually, physically, and mentally. Now I just feel like it will once again have to wait. I know the cup is looking half empty right now but I am just overwhelmed and frustrated. So I will just keep going and doing the best I can. I feel like I am failing in all the important things. I am trying to keep my head above the water. Not sure if that makes sense to anyone but me. Anyways, done venting.
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I am sorry you are overwhelmed J!!! You are right, it does sound crazy but you can do it! It always seems more overwhelming while you are in it. I still think of how I would LOVE to have 6 kiddos like you but I am sure I would get all freaky too about it at times! You are a WONDERFUL mother and I am sure you are doing great! The Lord doesn't expect perfection. If it makes you feel any better all this stuff keeps me tossing and turning too at night and I want to get back to taking care of ME. I am doing better but I still need to improve. I want to be a better momma too and everything else! LOL You are awesome! Just pray for the Lord's help each day and you can do it! ((HUGS)) and miss you terribly! :-/
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