Day 2

Today hasn't been so bad. I was able to get up out of bed a lot earlier than yesterday which means I could start my work out earlier too. I did more weights -upper body today and then took E for a walk (little guy won't sleep past 6am unless he is in bed with me) I think we walked around 2 miles. I really wanted to run but I am a wuss still so I have to work up to running out side. (I can jog/run on my treadmill). This is the part of the plan you have to improvise and the part I was talking about yesterday that is hard to keep up. You can't just stay home all day so you can eat perfectly. P took the day off so we were out running errands which means we were not home to eat lunch. I think we made a decently healthy choice -Chipotle. I ate less than half of what I got. So hopefully it doesn't keep me away from my goal. I had a horrible head ache yesterday but not so much today. Anyways... it is about the journey not the destination right?

We had J Blue and Gold banquet for scouts tonight. I did good for dinner but then the deserts came out. J and I made some homemade Oreo's and then someone made cake. It was lemony raspberry goodness. I was going to avoid deserts all together but my sweet K let me have one bite of his cake and then I just had to have my own. What is with me why can't I just have one bite and not have to have more? I guess it just takes time. At least I didn't sample everything. I normally would have wanted to and probably would have so at least I didn't do that not that I am justifying it or anything. Time for prayer and to put kids to bed YIPEE!

Day 1

Today I finally decided to do something about my big a%@! I took a good look at myself this weekend and I not only wanted to puke but I also wanted to cry. How could I be such an idiot and let myself get to this point? It's not like I don't have every diet book ever written! I seriously do wish I was joking there. People I have back fat and not just a little! And then when I came downstairs to whine about it to my DH he said well did you work out this week? Shasta!! No I didn't! So how can I complain if I am not at least trying? So this morning I did my resistance (weights) and then got 2 miles in on the treadmill. I have watched every little thing I have put into my mouth. I honestly don't know how I will keep this up but I have to!! I am already slightly frustrated and it has only been one day. I feel like I have spent my day planning the next meal, drinking H20 and sitting on the toilet (what goes in must come out). :) The plan I chose to mostly follow has me eating every 2-3 hours. That is a lot of time spent on preparing food and eating. Why in the hell could I not be one of those people who just eats to live instead of the other way around. This is going to be such a long process. . . .

Running.....

I was doing so great until I got out of my routine and I just can't seem to get back to running. The treadmill stares at me every morning and ya know what I walk right by and stick my tongue out at it. Okay not really because then I would feel stupid but I do it in my mind though. I have how ever been able to take the kids for a walk almost every day this week. Which has been so therapeutic for all of us. To be able to get fresh air is so amazing! I love it. One day we got back right before a major down pour of rain! Phew! It is going to be such a long road to get my pre baby body back (literally I will probably have to wait for the resurrection for that one) but I can keep on trying to get there can't I? It sure doesn't help when Girl Scout cookies are calling my name. At least they are only around once a year and I have been really good this year I only bought two boxes TOTAL and have even shared them. Normally I would have at least kept one box for myself! :) One more thing I recommend you all read "I hate it when Exercise is the answer" by Emily Watts. It has really helped me this last week to be nicer to myself.

Have A Happy Weekend!

Pic of A when she was about one. Sooo cute!